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Steph Talliss-Foster, Director of Student Affairs at Birmingham City University, shares her views on National Coming Out Day.
I’ve got something to tell you. I’m straight. To be fair, it’s quite clear. As a woman, married to the man she fell in love with at age 17, I’ve never had to hide my feelings from anyone (although my best friend at the time - I’ll call her ‘Kelly’ - was not happy at me spending more time with my new boyfriend than her). I mention Kelly for a reason – she thought ‘he’ was a phase.
By 17 I’d been around the dating block and knew what I wanted and knew what I didn’t want. My only ‘coming out’ was letting the world know that I’m into men who are intelligent, compassionate, kind, and make me laugh. The world never questioned that, or challenged me on it. My parents never – for a second – thought that it was a phase. That I’d wake up one day and decide that I really wanted someone who I couldn’t engage in conversation with, who was unfeeling, and who wouldn’t know a knock-knock joke if it, well, knocked on his door. So, what do I know about coming out?
My other best friend from school, (let’s call him ‘Rick’), never told me he was gay until we were both at university. I’m old enough to remember a time when I didn’t have an email account, and when I got one back in 1995, the first person I wanted to email was Rick. When I asked my boyfriend to marry me, the first person I wanted to tell was Rick. When Rick wanted to come out, the first person he wanted to tell was me. He found it hard, I can tell. Having known each other since primary school, I knew him inside and out. I knew what made him tick, what scared him and I knew if he was struggling with something. I also knew he was gay some five years before he ever told me. However, I did know that he didn’t know how to tell me.
He never actually said “I’m gay”, but made reference to someone he’d met at university who he thought was ‘the one’. He never mentioned a gender. I could feel him pushing me towards the knowledge despite the miles between us. I did the only thing I knew at the time and asked when I could meet him. Rick’s confession wasn’t ever really a confession, and I never actually made him say the words, but I could feel his sigh of relief from across the country.
I have to confess, I didn’t really understand the magnitude of the situation. He’d chosen me to come out to, and I’d just asked to meet his boyfriend. I never really made any fuss – I’m not sure if Rick wanted me to. But much like he accepted the 17 year-old me saying I was going to marry the guy I’d just met, I accepted that he knew what he wanted. Neither of us was going through a phase, and neither of us felt the need to hide what we wanted.
I have had a few other people come out to me – albeit, I wasn’t the first person they chose to tell. I’m somewhat ashamed to say that they can remember coming out to me, more than I remember it. They remind me that they had sweaty palms, drew a deep breath, and felt the need to blurt it out before I could get another word in. They also remind me that I thanked them for telling me, for trusting me with the information, and asking them if they wanted a hug. I remember none of it.
I know for some, coming out is not a possibility, that the world they occupy isn’t as accepting as it could be. So my advice to you is this, whether someone chooses National Coming Out Day or some other day to tell you: be non-judgemental, accepting, and above all, sensitive. For you it may be just another Thursday, but for them it’s the day they chose to come out to someone they trust. Respect that, and perhaps every day can be Coming Out Day.
National Coming Out Day takes place on Thursday 11 October 2018.